Best January Yet


Man, I love this “Spring in January” weather stuff.

This is a big week. We got our carpets redone — it cost me $1000.00 and it took them less than 4 hours, in and out. Buying new carpet makes me an adult. I thought you’d be pleased to know. I officially made an adult purchase, for the officially-adult house we officially own. And, I’m excited about the new carpet. So.. I’m officially an adult. It happened, at 29. Who knew.

Wait. I have a better idea. I am going to refuse to put the bed and furniture back together, and we will happily live in a lofty pillow fortress until we list the house. So.. never mind about the earlier stuff. It was a pretty short-term feeling. I am a wishy-washy adult. I’ll take it.

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Sunday Football


Ah for crap’s sakes. I’ve said this before, funny — but my hobbies seriously do not mesh. Monday-Friday afternoon-ish, I’m fucking focused. I’ve got laser vision — I’m on plan. I’m pre-planning meals entire days in advance, hitting nutrition goals, I’ve got my supplement game strong. Friday at noon I went back to crossfit! So pleased with myself.

Then Friday at 4pm.. until about Sunday post-game.. ah, all bets are off.

No fair! I can even do the low-carb beer thing. It’s the choices I make after those low-carb beers. Or, it might be the shots I take post beers. Not sure (note: this weekend doesn’t count.. I haven’t done so many birthday + Seahawks shots since I can’t remember). I’ll need to find a better balance (it’s only week 1) or I’ll have to go full out beer-banned.. I just don’t can’t let it get to that point! I’ll be extra good from now until Superbowl, I swear..

Still a flippin’ GREAT WEEKEND!!!!!




Ah. The sun shining, blue skies.. happy girl. Back to the gym now. Haha.

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No New Years Resolutions



Hi bros. It’s 2015. This is cool stuff.


It’s already midway through January. I started a new program this week, for the new year — I’m working with a nutritionist to try to make the most of my health & fitness goals, so I’m really excited about it. Instead of just a shot in the dark, trying new things without success, I’m truly going to make nutrition the focus (a first) and any additional benefit from all the work in the gym will just be a bonus. And I’m fairly serious about it all — went even as far to take legit before photos, on top of seeing the MD nutritionist with following a formal meal plan. Lee & I are even both getting body fat testing done Saturday morning.

Instead of just hoping and trying to make this work at the gym, I’ve got a real plan and real focus. I’ve always been a 0% diet and 100% exercise kind of girl — or, a 100% diet (which for me, is completely unrealistic for anything other than the short term) — but fat loss is 80% nutrition & 20% fitness, so I’m going to make changes. (Note – who knew beers were so bad for fitness goals.. oh). I’m tired of trying to compensate for poor eating habits with overdoing the exercise bit and failing (or injuring myself, which is failing but worse).

We’re in week 1 of an official 12-week challenge, so I’m committed at least until then, at which point I’ll check back in with progress (maybe sooner). I excited & truly committed. It’s not a new year’s resolution. It’s not even a before-30 resolution. It’s just a new technique towards a never-ending goal.

Bonus: I’m back up to 125# front squats, and 200# deadlift. I took a 18% hit for the 18 weeks I was out of the gym – awesome, right. Neat for math, boo for progress. Now I’m back to 91% of my PR weight, so getting back there.

It’s a new year. How crazy is that. 2015.

I thought I had more to say. I think that’s it for now though. I’ve been struggling a bit to feel happy and motivated and in a good routine, but I am feeling a little better now. Having a plan helps. Seeing how fast time moves is crazy. The things on my calendar stress me out.. but in a good way. I just need to stay on track. Lots to come this year. Updates soon.

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2015 Goals



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Three More Days!


I should start wrapping presents.

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Yay, Christmastime Things!


Ok. So I didn’t go to the gym.

But I made cookies!



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Here Comes The.. ?


Hi. It’s come to my attention that 1.) I’ve somehow lost the media from my older WP posts, and 2.) that I really don’t update much. I was trying to find my last lift stats (after I realized my photos on my “about me” were gone — and then deciding I should update my “about me” page) .. and the last (and only) time I posted them was back in May. Which doesn’t really matter, because according to Instagram (which at the time, I was relying on to keep track of my workouts), the last time I did any weights workouts was 16 weeks ago — in August, a few weeks after I started barre3.

Which I finished on October 20th.

Which ultimately means I haven’t worked out in 2 months.


So. Everything is making sense now.

A little fact about me: I can decently maintain a fair balance between eating whatever I want (often, in excess — if not quantity, then at least in quality — high calorie quality) as long as I’m equally working my ass off, on a near daily basis, which is something I actually very much enjoy doing. Working out is my favorite “me” time — I love the endorphins, I crave the undeniable easily measured success — each day I go, I’m better. And I love that.

I don’t like eating healthy. 10 years with Lee, I literally don’t know how to eat small portions (I’m trying to learn, really). He can eat anything, so I think I can too. So when I stop working out, things go nuts, and quick. I can literally lose 30 lbs in a month, when I’m really trying. I wouldn’t be surprised if that goes the other way, too.

So.. why the long break? The last 2 months have been busy. Honest. I stopped going to barre3 just right before we went to Florida (which was when my month promo expired). Unfortunately, prices go up from 100.00/month unlimited (new clients) to 170.00/month unlimited, after that first month. Even going nearly every day (I was at 25 days for the month, so 1x a week off-day) I mentally can’t justify 170.00/month. We still have a gym membership (which is like 17.00/month). I still have 5 months pre-paid at crossfit (which I really should do… fear, gah). I love barre3, but can’t.

Two weeks after I got back from Florida, Lee had surgery. Now it’s been 4 weeks (crazy) and for the most part, we’ve both just been taking it easy. The first two weeks were rough. Then it was Thanksgiving. Just now has he started getting back to normal, but he still can’t really workout like he used to, yet — so it’s just not been on my mind. It’s not a great excuse, but either way — looking at a calendar really puts time into perspective! I really had no idea it’d been this long.

So, now that I found the dates, and found the numbers (whoo-hoo) — you can see my starting weights, the 4-week update  (May 22nd), and then at 12 weeks after that, in bold (Aug 2014):

Workout A

  • Front squat — 65# to 130# –> 140
  • Overhead press — 50# to 70# –> 80
  • Deadlifts — 115# to 160# –> 220

Workout B

  • Front squat — 65# to 130# –> 140
  • Bent over rows — 90# to 125# –> 110*
  • Bench press — 90# to #115# –> 90*

Note: I changed from StrongLifts (SL) to Ice Cream Fitness (ICF) around early August, so I didn’t really have much time between starting (3 full rounds, A&B) before I took my break — but ICF has 8 different exercises on Workout A, and 7 on Workout B (so significantly more work, and a longer workout). I went down on a few stats (*) actually, when I switched over — I adjusted my posture to correct form/technique, which took me down a bit (but overall was much better).

ICF Stats:

Workout A
Novice Program
Exercise Sets Reps        Update
Squats 5 5                 135
Bench Press 5 5                 90
Bent Over Row 5 5                125
Barbell Shrugs 3 8                125
Tricep Extensions 3 8                ‘7’ plate
Straight Bar or Incline Curls 3 8                45
Hyperextensions with plate 2 10              25
Cable Crunches 3 10              ‘7’ plate
Workout B
Novice Program
Exercise Sets Reps        Update
Squats 5 5                 140
Deadlift 1 5                220
Standing Press 5 5                80
Bent Over Row (10% lighter than Workout A) 5 5                110
Close Grip Bench Press 3 8                70
Straight Bar or Incline Curls 3 8                45
Cable Crunches 3 10              ‘7’ plate

So — moral of the story — besides my fitness stat updates (and lack thereof)? Back to the gym today!! I’ll try to update more often on how it’s going, maybe post some before & after pics if I’m feeling particularly swole. Hahaha. I am about halfway through my go-to diet/cleanse, which I know will affect my numbers just as much as a 8 week break will (16 weeks if you count last time I did this workout) .. but gotta start somewhere! Bonus: not drinking (really) should help — the one & only true benefit of this diet. This clean eating stuff.. ugh.

But — I’ll have that head start for next year. The year I’ll turn 30. Ah, shit.

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Some Words And Stuff


Ha — you can thank these two (2 — count ‘em!) posts today, brought to you by my drafts folder. Past-me had some things to say, and promptly forgot all about them. The others were deleted, but this one was good enough & still relevant enough to share. I like other people’s things! Enjoy.


I don’t write enough. But I still collect my favorite words online. Here are some of them.



“ If you’re nice to an animal, it loves you for life. If you’re nice to a person, who the fuck knows what’s gonna happen. ”

“ I knew it wasn’t too important, but it made me sad anyway. ”

“ Who, in your life, do you remember most fondly, with the most undeniable feelings of warmth?
Those who were kindest to you, I bet. ”
– George Saunders, The Importance of Kindness

“ One day, a long time from now you’ll cease to care anymore whom you please or what anybody has to say about you. ”

“ Your life has thus far been defined by idiots. ”
Magnificent Ruin

“ Love is brutal
when it’s done right ”
Love is

“ Let’s just find people with exactly the same faults we have, criticize them unmercifully, and see what they do. We could learn something. ”
– @ShipInTheKnight

INCIDENTAL COMICS<br /><br /> Words and Pictures by Grant Snider
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Good Morning


I have reasons for showing up to work.

Yup. It’s coffee.


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Go On, Go On


I am a sucker for lists, tests, questions, thinking. I was stumbling around in some old emails around 2010 and found this link. I took the test again today. Same results – INFJ:

INFJs are conscientious and value-driven. They seek meaning in relationships, ideas, and events, with an eye toward better understanding of themselves and others. Using their intuitive skills, they develop a clear and confident vision, which they then set out to execute, aiming to better the lives of others. Like their INTJ counterparts, INFJs regard problems as opportunities to design and implement creative solutions.[12]

INFJs can adapt easily in social situations due to their complex understanding of an individual’s motivations; however, they are true introverts. INFJs are private individuals who prefer to exercise their influence behind the scenes. Though they are very independent, INFJs are intensely interested in the well-being of others. INFJs prefer one-on-one relationships to large groups. Sensitive and complex, they are adept at understanding complicated issues and driven to resolve differences in a cooperative and creative manner.[3]

INFJs have a rich, vivid inner life that they may be reluctant to share with those around them. Nevertheless, they are congenial in their interactions and perceptive of the emotions of others. Generally well liked by their peers, they may often be considered close friends and confidants by most other types; however, they are guarded in expressing their own feelings, especially to new people, and tend to establish close relationships slowly. INFJs tend to be easily hurt, though they may not reveal it (except to their closest companions). INFJs may “silently withdraw as a way of setting limits” rather than expressing their wounded feelings—a behavior that may leave others confused and upset.[13]

INFJs tend to be sensitive, quiet leaders with a great depth of personality. They are intricately, deeply woven, mysterious, highly complex, and often puzzling, even to themselves. They have an orderly view toward the world but are internally arranged in a complex way that only they can understand. Abstract in communicating, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. With a natural affinity for art, INFJs tend to be creative and easily inspired, yet they may also do well in the sciences, aided by their intuition

This pleases me to no end. I’m not sure why, except maybe I feel more justified, or more sure of myself. Even in 2010, I didn’t quite feel sure of who I was. It makes me happy that I feel much more sure now, and that I’m still me. It’s not that I’ve changed really at all, just evolved more into who I am & who I’m comfortable being. What a relief. To not always feel like I should be something else. I’m decently neat, you know. Just being me. And note: I am much, much more happy now than I was in 2010! Funny that I was still writing here, then.

So going from there – it’s been a heck of a month! And a last few months. And this year! I honestly can’t believe that the beginning of this year was still part of this year. I mean, shit. In January I was just getting over pneumonia (the sickest I’ve ever been, ever) and then I immediately hurt myself & dealt with that for months. For the most part, it doesn’t bother me at all anymore — how amazing is that. What a relief. Not like I’ve been doing crossfit (or even.. anything.. ah, shit). But, it’s nice not to hurt. For months there, I would literally lay on the floor at work, to try to relax the pain a bit. I was hazy on pain killers. It was a weird few months, there. I spent a lot of time seeing different doctors. Trying a (scammy) chiropractor — would not recommend. X-rays. I went to an old Chinese acupuncturist, on Valentine’s day. His office was like grandma’s house. Saw a spine doctor, had a super fun MRI — both my mom & Lee went with me. It was neat. I felt special. Haha. Yeah, so weird — that was my life earlier this year.

I started school (!). I switched schools (?). I’ve honestly spent a little less time with school than I planned, lately. It’s all a work in process. I’m not concerned, or worried. I have a plan. I’m happy.

Lee spent a bunch of time traveling, and I got to go with him, sometimes. Arizona, California. That was all this year too. Those were fun. The other times, staying at home by myself – not so much fun. He almost never travels now, with their last big project thing over in Eastern WA being completed. Phew.

I’m literally looking over my calendar to try to remember everything that happened this year. What a strange year! The summer was a blur. I spent the majority of the year focusing on working out, seeing what kind of progress I could reach – lifting weights at the gym, then barre, both which I love, both which I haven’t seen much of lately. To be continued, soon! On contrast, I did a bunch of baking things this year too — a few really fun baby showers, Megan’s wedding (!) .. lots of special events, and now prepping for Christmas. It’s so much easier to do not-eating; dieting at Christmas is really the best & worst idea I’ve ever tried. I will start the new year off right .. but seriously .. no Christmas cookies is hard work. Luckily I can still make & enjoy them without eating. Or so, that’s the plan.

Lee turned 30! We had our 10 year anniversary! Lee graduated college, and literally almost immediately after had major jaw surgery! Jeesus. No wonder this year is a blur. Those take up so much of my mind, especially the surgery because it’s been such a huge thing, that he’s been working towards for so long (school too). He’s 3 weeks post-op today, which I can’t believe it’s been 3 whole weeks. He’s been eating a little more here & there, but he now officially is allowed more than an all-liquid diet. How grateful I am those 3 weeks went by as fast as they did. I have yet to throw him a party to celebrate finishing school, because it’s all been so busy — and who wants a party recovering from surgery.

And for the record — is time supposed to go by this fast? Let’s talk about this. Jen’s baby is 4 months old! She was already pregnant this time last year. That seems unreal too. Joy has a 14 year old. I’ve been working at NWF for almost 8 years. And most unbelievable — 10 years together?! That’s 7 years since our wedding in 2007. That’s 10 years since I was going to school in Oregon at UO, 10 years since our first date, 10 years. To celebrate, we went out to Canlis – the most breathtaking, beautiful, amazing time of my life. I can’t recommend higher. And not for a casual evening, either — I wore my best dress, I curled my hair & put on fake eyelashes, Lee wore a suit.. and we were absolutely not out of place whatsoever (besides possibly our age; very fancy, very rich people seem to be the norm). The best meal of my life. The best service of my life. We got a bottle of champagne. We were there for probably 3 hours, 4 courses not including unexpected appetizers and an extra dessert with coffee.. I could write another whole post just gushing about this meal. I’ll stop here for now. I can’t imagine how we could ever celebrate anything as special as that, for any other life event. How completely, outrageously lucky am I. To be surrounded with such fortune, and love. With so many wonderful people around me. I love everyone & everything in my life, right now. It has never been any better than it is now, like this. I swear I’m not drunk — oh my gosh, editing this hahaha. I just am honestly so grateful that somehow, I got here.

I’m not sure what exactly I did to get here in my life, but I am overwhelmed with gratitude. Many times throughout my life, I’ve felt as though I had lost my way, felt so unsure about so many things in my life, so many times. I finally feel right where I’m supposed to be. I am so grateful to have that. I belong right where I am, and it’s such a beautiful way to feel.  Things are always changing, and everyone recovers and adapts all the time. It’s different for everyone but the theme is always the same. Everyone grows and changes and life is one long attempt to keep up — with trying to understand what you can’t possibly understand, with doing your best to be good and be happy — but I finally feel relaxed about it all, about my path. I am who I want to be.

“I am so into you, I’m into me – too”
Ani DiFranco

Anyway — what a year. I didn’t honestly intend for this to be a year recap post, but it’s been really most of the year that I’ve neglected to write. It all came out. This has been such a year of change & excitement and figuring out who I am and where I want to go and planning more adventures. I am sure as hell excited for next year. I want to do and see & feel and be so much. I have no regrets, everything has gotten me here so I wouldn’t change it at all. Just more to come. I’m excited just to be alive. It’s a nice feeling.

And I’ll update again more soon. Hopefully not before an entire year has passed.

And, friends (and my family, and Lee who is all of those things) – thank you for such happiness and love you bring in my life.

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